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Name: Yumi
Age: 32
Contact:

Yzaksama, PM, @ yumileighhazen (discord)
Timezone: MEST, GMT+2
Other Character(s): Anael (Supernatural)

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Name: Evan ‘Buck’ Buckley
Door: Left

Canon: 9-1-1
Canon Point: end of S07E05, after he has his coffee date with Tommy

Age: 32
Appearance: 6’2’’, sandy blond curly hair, bright blue eyes, has a distinctive red birth mark surrounding his left eyebrow, muscular, has several tattoos

History: Here
CR AU (Optional): N/A

Personality:

Positive Trait:
Selflessness

Buck is a very loyal and selfless person, especially when it concerns those he loves. And he does love easy and hard, quickly willing to do almost anything for the other person, even if that should result in his own needs not being met. If he is needed by someone he loves, he will drop anything and everything at a moment’s notice to rush to their side and support them however he can.

When Eddie is shot, for example, Buck dutifully goes to his son Christopher’s side and tells him about Eddie being in the hospital, but ends up having a tearful break down of his own in front of the boy. He later feels guilty about this since he was meant to be there for Christopher and not the other way around, which Buck apologizes profusely to Eddie about, again not realizing that his own feelings are also valid and important.

At one point his older sister Maddie suffers from postpartum depression following her daughter Jee-Yun's birth and leaves L.A. to get better, only telling her brother Buck where she went. Even though it results in a falling out with Maddie's boyfriend and Jee-Yun's father Howard, Buck refuses to disclose her location because he had promised to keep it a secret. This shows that he once more puts her sister's needs before his own since Howard punches Buck and then doesn't speak with him, which doesn't make Buck go back on his promise despite the fact that it puts strain on his friendship with Howard.

Negative Trait:
Jealousy

Even though his first instinct is always to push this feeling down, Buck has a tendency to get intensely jealous, especially when he feels as if he is being replaced by someone else. This becomes apparent when he first meets Eddie Diaz. At this point, Buck is already riled up and competitive when he and some of the other firefighters consider applying to appear in that year's sexy firefighter calendar, only for him to first lay eyes on Eddie and simultaneously be told about the other man's accomplishments, such as graduating from the fire academy top of his class and being awarded a silver star for his service as an army medic in Afghanistan. Buck feels threatened instantly and is incredibly mean to Eddie at first, though Eddie gives him no occasion to be and also doesn't join in on this rivalry. Following the extraction of a live bomb from a man's leg alongside Eddie, Buck however changes his tune very quickly and suddenly becomes Eddie's best friend and biggest supporter.

A similar situation arises 5 years later, when Eddie befriends former firefighter Tommy Kinard whom he has a lot in common with. Buck gets extremely jealous of Tommy and Eddie spending so much time together all of a sudden and is scared that his place in Eddie's life as his best friend might be called into question when Tommy joins Eddie for his pick-up basketball games and flies him out to Vegas for a night to watch a MMA fight. Buck tries desperately to catch Eddie's attention again, going so far as to seriously hurt him while they are playing basketball, even if it of course isn't on purpose. The situation ends up being resolved when Tommy shows up at Buck's door and wants to reassure Buck that he isn't trying to replace him. It turns out, however, that the whole thing was only partially because of Buck's relationship with Eddie as Buck states that he wanted to get Tommy's attention. After the two of them share a kiss that leads Buck to find out he is actually bisexual, the two start dating.

Negative Trait:
Impulsivity

Buck tends to run into dangerous situations head first without consideration as to how it might put him in danger if there is someone in need of assistance. This has come to bite him multiple times in his life of work as a firefighter which more often than not involves life or death situations. Rather than pausing to consider all of the possibilities, Buck – especially early on in his career – would most often go ahead and put the first plan that crosses his mind into motion. This results in his having to be stopped by others. This is the case, for example, when the team is called to a bathroom in which a newborn seems to be stuck in one of the pipes. Buck's first impulse is to open the wall using an axe he is already carrying and he has to be stopped by Bobby, his captain, because he doesn't even consider the possibility that he might hurt the child blindly swinging that axe.
He also has a history of throwing himself into romantic relationships and - particularly when he first started out as a firefighter - sexual flings. During the latter, he would often disregard the consequences entirely when he'd try to impress the girl of the week (or the day) and go as far as stealing a fire engine to hook up in or take the girl to the fire station's roof. The combination of these actions do originally get him fired, even if he was rehired just after.

Additionally, he also doesn't always consider how his actions might affect others or even himself emotionally before he goes through with something. This becomes apparent when he sues the fire department in the hopes of getting his job back but thereby alienates himself from the 118 - who are his chosen family - and is called out on his reckless behavior by Eddie Diaz, who is his best friend and whose son Christopher also cannot see Buck as a result of the lawsuit. Seeing as Buck serves as Eddie's co-parent, this causes all of them pain, something which Buck hadn't considered in his single-minded pursuit of keeping his job and hence his place at the 118.

Negative Trait:
Lack of self-worth / Insecurity

The reason Buck ends up suing the department ultimately is his deep-seated lack of self-worth. He feels secure in his position as a firefighter usually seeing as he is good at his job. When that position is put into jeopardy however Buck tends to feel as if he is losing everything, as if without his ability to work as a firefighter the people he loves most, his team, his family, will no longer want him around and eventually leave him. This is why, after he was hurt in action when his leg was crushed underneath a fire engine, and he is deemed a risk because he develops a blood clot and is put on blood thinners, he sees no other way of securing his job and with it his place in life among these people he loves apart from filing a lawsuit.

His insecurity originally stems from the way his parents treated him throughout his childhood and youth, the reason for which he only finds out much later: He was born as a savior sibling for his older brother Daniel who was suffering from leukemia and died from the condition since the bone marrow transplant failed to save his life. Daniel's existence was kept a secret from Buck, though his parents never treated him with love, subconsciously blaming Buck for failing to save his brother as he was meant to. Throughout his childhood and teenage years, he would keep getting hurt as a result of his reckless behavior, which was a cry for help and the only way he knew how to express to his parents how neglected he felt. Sadly, they didn't see that, instead telling him years later that he always had been difficult, when they should have realized that he just wanted their attention and love regardless.

His insecurities also manifest time and time again in his romantic relationships. When his first serious girlfriend Abby leaves him to explore Europe after her mother dies, he clings to the apartment that used to be hers, deluding himself into thinking she'll come back even when she stops returning his calls and text messages. When she returns two years later, he finds that she is engaged to another man, never having bothered to tell him she wouldn't return and fully unaware of how her behavior affected him, leading him once more to conclude that he couldn't possibly be enough for someone to stay for.

He generally is stuck in a pattern of not feeling like he is worth putting up with for the people he loves and dates. His other girlfriend Ali leaves because she cannot deal with his job being as dangerous as it is, seeing as she dumps him when his leg is crushed and he ends up in the hospital. The girlfriend after that news reporter Taylor Kelly uses his trust to gather intel about his fire station to create a news story to advance her career, the betrayal of which causes them to break up.

Even with Eddie Diaz and his son Christopher, Buck feels like he isn't worth as much as they are and is ready to sacrifice himself if it means the two of them are alright. This goes so far that Buck tells Eddie that he should have been shot in his place because it would be better for Christopher, not realizing that he too is Christopher's parent and extremely important to the Diazes and the rest of his family at the 118. Eddie has to remind him that he isn't replaceable even if Buck tends to act as if he is.

Powers and Abilities: No powers, as he is just a regular guy. He is quite strong physically since he works as a firefighter and goes to the gym a lot. Some other interests he excels in include cooking and knowing random facts about any and all equally random topics, owing to a lot of time spent on Wikipedia and watching documentaries.

Inventory: - A drawing by Christopher Diaz, that previously hung on his fridge, folded up inside of his wallet
- Said wallet also includes a family picture, featuring the 118, his sister Maddie and her daughter as well as Christopher and Eddie's Abuela and Tía Pepa. His parents are suspiciously absent but there is an old childhood picture of his older brother Daniel.

Samples: No. 1 & No. 2